The Best Time of My Life?

It's my senior year and I'm supposed to be excited. And I am. A little. I could be happier but I just don't know how. I've been at my high school for four years, I'm perfectly comfortable where I am and who I'm with. In less than twenty days, that is all going to change.

It seems like everything is being all thrown together. I have Prom coming up in nineteen days. I need to go tanning, get my dress tailored, make a hair and nail appointment, and manage to lose about five pounds. And that's just Prom. Not to mention everything I have to do for finals. I have a final test AND project in two of my biggest classes: Government and Psychology! I'm really looking forward to it. Oh, and I forgot to mention the school newspaper that I have articles to write and pages to layout and edit.

This is how my last week of school is going to go:

• June 1 and 2 - Cedar Point Trip
• June 3 - Commencement Practive
• June 4 - Senior Breakfast
• June 6 - Senior Award Assembly
• June 7 - Commencement (Make sure you come!)

I thought I would never be a senior and now that it's here, I wish it never came. It's a very bittersweet time in my life and I'm not sure I know how to handle it.

College doesn't seem like it'll be any better. I was going to share a dorm with three different people at three different times and for various reasons, it didn't work out in the end. So, I was kinda stuck without a roommate until my friend Jessica from YSU said she had a friend, Brittany who was looking for a roommate. I'm trusting her judgement that Brittany and I will get along, but what if we don't? I'm having trouble letting go of my family and the fact that for the first time in my life, I'll be on my own.

I'm just in the beginning stages of my Photography career. I have approximately 225 images accumulated. Most of which, I'm very fond of. I have these photos posted on my facebook page (http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1661138692) and I've got some very positive feedback that I am blessed with. Because of this, I've already been the Photographer for my Aunt Monica's wedding. I've been asked to do a wedding this summer where I would have to fly out to California and one sometime in 2012. I also agreed to take my friend's senior pictures. I just don't know if I'm capable of handling all of these things, know that they are a huge part of these people's lives and that makes me beyond nervous.

I guess most of these things are beyond my control. I just need to live day by day and keep my faith in God because I know He doesn't give us things we can't handle, it just doesn't seem like it at the time.

This is my first official blog so I apologize if it isn't great. In time, they will get better, I hope. Thanks for reading! :).